when i consider how much i accomplished in a short 24 hours, i have to wonder how much inefficiency there is in regular life. in effect, i didn’t really do that much but i found amazing was my ability to shift mental states so easily. this may be one of my strengths that i am beginning to make note of. if i was to think about even deeper, it actually may be the ability to be more present with whatever i am doing. even though there’s still a lot of thinking from moment to moment, i still get the feeling that whatever i am doing, i am more likely to embrace the moment. even when i am at work, i am constanting changing routines and processes. obviously, the flip side of this is an inablity to focus on something for an extended period of time. case and point, i am suppose write about inspiration but i ended babbling about how unfocused i am.
so while i am on my magic tour of pomo canyon, i am thinking much about the nature of the experience. the question becomes does the magic make the experience and/or how much does the mental state apriori effect the experience. as i look all around me and try to record the experience through the camera, i know that the documentation process was futile for the most part. i feel like so much of the experience is beyond concepts and feelings that it would be just a farce to describe it. regardless, it’s not sufficient enough for me to be still and just enjoy the experience. i indugle in all the senses with the camera, the mp3 player, the sweat and composition. most of the photos come out boring after the fact but there are still a couple of very unusual gems that would have not come about in a sober state of mind. i am usually happy with one photo so it all works out at the end of the day. i tend to focus on reabstraction of the various forms and colors within the natural context. the geometric language of nature is utterly goregous. the real kicker on this particular trip was the anti intellectualization of her. in the realm of magic, intellectual exercises go out of the window and thoughts are processed through primative filters. at the end of the experience, there isn’t a line of thought that stands out that can be rearticulated but there is an undenible impression on the pysche. so, when i compound all these factors together, it’s overwhelming painful that the stars have begun to align.