sometimes i wonder i believe in myself too much. i don’t really think about it too often but i do take the occasion mental pause to consider the what if. what if i was wrong and my vision for the business was simply nothing more than a pipe dream. in some regards, every day that we survive, it seems less as a pipe dream but at the same time i don’t that much more confident now than 4 years ago. the main factor that eats aways away at the confidendance is the simple fact that we are not finanically stable at all. every day the debt goes bigger and the overhead continues to grow with it. yes, it’s amazing that we can even entertain such a level of overhead but being in the red for such a long time begins to destory the belief at some fundmental level. and at some point, i have to wonder if i will reach that point wher ei am i am actually in a state of denial. these aren’t the thoughts that keep me up at night however. only when i am entering my credit card statements into the accounting program do i realize i much i am paying for to execute the vision. this is putting the money where your mouth is.
