instead of meditating right now, i am going to take some time to procastinate and find the nature of my monklessness. it would seem easy enough to meditate given that it cost me anything except some precious time. it’s obvious enough that my yoga practice is greatly assisted by my yoga buddy and fine women of the establishment. and so i am only left with lame excuses for why i haven’t meditated in x months. i know it’s my racket because it’s a constant complaint and the only loser is me. fundmentally, i am so far from that particular state of mind that i need to do a hard reset to find that groove again. it goes without saying that i need a serious retreat again. as much as i would like to go to iceland for my 33rd, i think i need to start this 33rd year with a retreat. i am committed to that much. for now, i need to continue my yogi practices as i am lucky enough that i had not regress so significantly given a lack of practice for over 3 weeks.
