in the company of like minded people, it’s refreshing to bring myself down a couple notches. to the likes of dharma inspired souls, all my accomplishments and talents are but distractions. sure i can tell myself that i am doing it ‘for the benefits of all sentential beings’ but if i actually remember that on a daily basis, i wouldn’t care if the employees did a good job or not. ulimately, i know i would not get too caught up in trying too hard to lead anyone, even if we are paying them. for me, it’s more interesting that we don’t make a lot of money because truly, it makes many things easier in much respect. i often laugh at the stress people create for themselves when they have to choose between the 3 bedroom and the insurance policies that support it. no doubt i am no less guiltly with my dual monitor bubblified sound system. it’s all diminishing returns at this point.
i got a call from a friend tonight and i am wondering to myself, who am i to get calls from friends? sometimes i wonder why i even have friends because i give so little to the friendship. yeah, i am being a bit hard on it but somebody has to be critical of me. no friend or girlfriend has been critical enough. to demand more of me. that is why i need a teacher. for now, i am left to entertain myself of icononic photography of the path…
