i don’t know how long one can go on doing the one hand head stand but it get tiresome at some point. it seems that i am unlike most men but maybe i am actually more alike than i think but regardless without my yogic positioning and sweat inducing games, i would get very serious DSB before i can say some long word that i can’t pronounce. i am entertaining myself by browsing the personals on nerve, my current fave website since i discovered it one lonely night while talking to secrets agents from the netherlands. but tonight i am completely sober enough to feel bitter about ‘working’ too hard, even if i don’t consider it as work, too much time is being spent in front of the cold interface of efficiency.
at times even the yogic practices feel shallow because it’s too much of a body high. i know the peace that comes to the state of mind is so short lived, almost as soon as i walk back to my corporate headquarters. i need seperation not becase it’s entirely necessary but at times there doesn’t seem to be a choice and that bothers me.