20,000 miles and 10 days of romantic bliss later, i am staring at the computer screen again. still under the influence of MJ and cranking out travel photos like it’s still 7pm auckland time.
on the flight home, i cried but not because i miss her. although i was on the verge at the airport as we’re waving our hands across the inviblse shield of reality. i know the emotional of a moderately mild departure will catch up with me later but on the plane i saw the movie, ‘whale rider’ and it made me cry. for reasons beyond me, i will easily cry during a movie but put me in a real life tear jerking situation and i seem to be wrapped in some inner calm that everything is going to be okay. anyway, super wonderful movie to watch with powerful lessons about acceptance and change. the lead child actress was also pretty amazingly natural and awesome. and lastly, the soundtrack was written by lisa gerrad. i didn’t know that but during the movie, i just thought that the music was aching beautiful and approriate. it was a nice surprise to hear that it was one of the original punk kids.
it seems that so much as transpire on a level that goes beyond proper explanation. on the surface, all that we mostly did was vacationly crap like go kayaking, hiking, tourist shit and hung out. but there was a lot of deep converstaions and explorations. things that would have been drawn out over a couple of years were discuss in the interest of faith. to take a sneak peak down the future to see if we should continue opening the door beyond ourselves. so, i borrowed this wonderful book at the public library before i got on the plane and the book was a sign of things to come. i had actually gotten this book out earlier during our first great break up but couldn’t bear to read it in the light of the events. still, even after only a couple of chapters, i knew it would provide powerful insights in to my style of relationships. the author, susan page, is pretty heavily influence by buddhist lines of thoughts and the self relationship help book was ‘applied spirituality’ in the context of relationship. anyway, i got through have of the book on the flight home and i had shared it with her during our vacation. she really enjoyed the first chapter as well and i think we will use it as the basis of reference moving forward. i haven’t ever read a relationship typish book before but this one, ‘if we are so in love, why aren’t we happy’, may be the most worthy of any i will ever encounter. it’s surprising simply and because i already understand most of the concepts that she preaches, i think it will really help spiritually aware couples to really take it to the next level. if you’re tired of the ‘we need to communicate, to solve our problems’ line of relationship management, then i recommend checking this one out.
anyway, reality sets in real quick for me as i am suppose to shoot a wedding tomorrow. i emotionally ready for it but not mentally. mentally, i am ready to get married myself but emotionally i rather be a pot head.