the great fifth

in tibetan buddhism, the Great Fifth refers to the 5th dalai lama, a great among spiritual giants. for untold reasons, my deep interest has return to the study of the masters of the mind. so, i picked up the book on the history of all 14 dalai lamas a couple of nights ago and on saturday night i pore over the poety of the Great Fifth. even as my body is sorely aching from a brutal brikam yoga class, i am enthrall in the truth and beauty that i read before me. granted, i had reach a higher state of conicousness through the help of an old friend (she was helping with the sore body) before reentering the mystical world of the dalai lamas. even while i was reading the book today at brainwash, i felt a sense of peace and wonderment as the words connected to me. the more i learn about the depths and power of the mystical/tantric side of tibetean buddhism, the more i inch towards a full blown obession about it. well, i know having the wrong movativation towards this path can lead painful ditches. at any right, my ability to focus is definitely entertaining at best and downright retarded as widely regarded by most. nonetheless, my spiritual path will continue to crash with the experimental methods of consciousness elevators. i even finally got around to ordering some new herbs on the net tonight. i had delayed ordering since i was aware of it last september when my lady friend and i broke up. we had both learnt about the herb on an outwardly normalish evening dinner party that ended with many seeds of pain and sorrows being planted. alas, the seeds have come full circle and our relationship is blooming. but i digress again.

“Meypa! Pure self-discipline is the earth in which to plant the seeds;
A mind made strong with meditative power is
The moisture and nutrient to be used;
And the wisdom of insight is the sun that ripens the crop.”
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“For untrained people, those who behave with enmity
Are like a sharp thorn pricking at the heart.
Train yourself in the great patience born
from exchanging self-cherishing for universal love.
One uproots the mind of partiality that see some people
As friends, others as strangers and still others as foes.
And learns to see all as friends, relatives and loved ones.”

And so there are pages of these short poetic teachings that i find delight in. each nugget, like the green brownies born out of natoma, can implode the infinite space inherent in our mind if we are ready for it. yeah, i like that. an implosion into infinite space. a paradoxical joke suitable for the unstable ones. i wonder how long before i embark on the wonder that is tibet. definitely in this decade of my life for sure.

this is what happen when i begin to think that i am creative. i go through my collection of silliness shots and pick shots that’s suppose to mean something after it’s been sitting around for a while. like it has no significance until i can contextualize the image around a different state of mind. anyway, i had to create my burst of creative outburst there before i hit the sack. another unproductive night but maybe i should meditiate and see where it takes me.