women and cats will do as they please,
and men and dogs should relax
and get used to the idea.

-robert heinlein

i don’t think i’ve gotten used to this concept yet. maybe my ego is too big to let it happen but maybe the sooner i accept it, the easier it becomes. i don’t think i’ve ever been so torn about what to do with the current relationship. one minute i am ready to get married and the next minute i am ready to jump of the bridge with frustration. i guess that would be called immaturity in most books but i guess that’s a sign that i am trying to too hard to make something work.