since the start of orange, my view of the corporate world has gone from it sucks to no way am i going to live this way the rest of my life. ironically, it seems that it’s no secret that people want to run their own business given the high number of small business but my perception has been it’s small potates and you end up working like a dog for yourself. obviously, i am wrong on both misconceptions because if you find the right people to start a business with, it becomes a lifetstyle befitting of our diverse ablility, intellectual capacity and personal values. as much as i depise my current contract, i keep telling myself that is fuel for the long drive ahead of me and orange.
it’s also entertaining that i find myself starting a photography business with the likes of my current partners. i’ve always had it in the back of mind since high school that i wanted to run my own business because i still recall the days i would lie in my shitty room in the dream up silly names of MY corporation. like HUYNH industries. how funny. well, i am glad i don’t need to be so ego driven as much and orange is not about me. i rather also not be a public figure within the organization but the reality of a photography business that i put up some persona of some sorts. i am not sure how far orange will go, i am pretty sure we will be happy doing it for the next several years and the vision of our collective soul will be reached but i don’t know if i will be able to enjoy the full fruit of my labor. but then i may be enjoying it as much on my hut in vietnam collecting my pension from orange.
it’s been a most interesting year for the business given the level of emotional iinvolvment because orange and my personal life. it feels like a personal failure of some sorts when i am emotionally involved in the business. i mean how immature of me to think that I could actually work and be in a intimate relationship with the same person. talk about OVER that top levels of interaction. considering my ‘i need a lot of space’ mentallity, the relationship was doomed to implode. hell, it was a great time but it was too good and that was a sure sign if any that there’s something wrong with it.