yes, there was a point in our relationship that we were..
Two hands longing for each others warmth
Two hands digging in each others wounds
and full verse..
Two feet standing on a principle
Two hands digging in each others wounds
Cold smoke seeping out of colder throats
Darkness falling, leaves nowhere to move
It’s spiraling down
Biting words like a wolf howling
Hate is spitting out each others mouths
But we’re still sleeping like we’re lovers
for a while, in my mid twenties and through the mid thirties, i entertain the idea of taking refuge as a monk for a period of time. i think that idea is dead now. i’ve come to the realization/karmic level, that i am fine with deepening the path in the context of a normal life. i still think of doing the 3 week, 3 month and 3 year retreat format but let’s not jump ahead of ourselves. i am only on day 31 of straight meditation days. only about 14K days to go. wow, i just did […]
i had a heated debate with an old friend today and although we agreed on most things, i did get my feathers ruffle. it’s been a while since i got so defensive. i thought about it while i was driving home and i ask myself while i get defensive and what was really its root is. sadly everyone knows what the answer but i had forgotten about it. self worth man. yeah, whoa, like that’s deep! my so called success had covered that old wound pretty good. but tonight i got a whiff of the stale wound. […]
dear amazing daughter. i don’t know how many times i look at you and say to myself, she’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. whether you’re saying ‘yeah’ in that nonchalant way when i tell you that i love you or when you’re screaming about jonsi is licking your toes, i am stumbling back into the present moment and you become the greatest teacher to man that think that they are so successful in their own minds. it’s all the love i have you, mixed in with whatever emotion you’re having, that creates this […]
i’ve been dreading this upcoming birthday for some time now. the big guys says cool it and don’t make a big deal about it. the little guy can’t help want to be depress and take advantage of the mid life crisis get out of jail free card. invariably there’s inertia of opposite forces canceling each other out and another year passes. well supposedly but i don’t think that’s going to happen this year. the old jack got you here and it’s brilliant. but is the old jack going to get you out of samsara? unfortunately not. let […]