IPeev Portrait
lost letter to uma
whenever you tell me how ‘favoublus’ you look, i great a chuckle inside my soul. the way you say it and how you say it with such pride, it’s a wonderful joy you give me. every day, i ask myself why you didn’t come into my life earlier. i would have sooner realize the preciousness of this human life. i know it intellectually before but only until now do i feel it in my bones. so i simultaneously rush so that i can slow down earlier. it’s a funny joke we play on ourselves. and then i […]
the year in review prelude
when i turned forty, it was a very quiet night. i recalled telling myself to think about that it was just another day except t wasn’t because it was my birthday. the higher self knew that it didn’t matter if my little ego thought if i felt successful or not at this age. he sat patiently, knowing in some intuitive matter that i would eventually come around. still, my little ego could help but rejoice from what was and what is. it’s been a long 10 years and the end it was the beginning for forty. i […]
working with desire
in the past month, i had the pleasure of experiencing a sustain feeling of unmet desire. in other words, i met a woman that makes me nervous being around her. it would seem that although i feel generally introverted, my job sometimes requires me to be super extroverted to make people smile at ease. Most of the time, when i met highly attractive woman, i do freeze up and that professional game time face never had a chance to materialize. it’s precisely because deep down i don’t what that side of me taking the front seat because […]
a month later
it’s been a while since i touched the blog. a lot his happened in the past month. so big changes in progress now. first off, i sorta kick ass on my first marathon. i ran it in 4:51 which was better than i hope for. the best thing was i didn’t feel totally wasted after it. it was tough but not actually worse then being on a bike for 8 hours. yeah, the AIDS ride a few years back set the bar for me. Don’t think i will do anything at that length any time soon but […]