prison of things and actions

i am grateful for all the blessings of material, physical and emotional well being that i am experiencing. yet, despite all these blessings, the black hole in my soul deepens as i experience more success in the relative world. the golden handcuffs of well being tightens as i half ass my spiritual journey just enough to feed my ego. i yearn from some great suffering to reset my perspective but that’s just wishful thinking. i am by no means lost but definitely stuck. not willing to pry myself from the addiction of habitual tendencies. who can i find to get rid of the hungry ghost inside me?