when i realized that i almost lost over 10 years of frivolous writing on the blog, i panic for a few days. i didn’t think much of my blog until the possibly of it all being lost remind me that some day, i may find great amusement from reading all this unstructured mess. considering, there were only about 800 something posts in 13 years, it’s not that many but it wasn’t insignificant either. so i’ve decided that i am going to make a more concerted effort to write more this year. i dare not publicize most of my entries because sadly they’re usually written in some drunken state or some sort of mental fog. so as i was migrating my blog to a more ‘managed’ hosting, meaning i don’t have to worry about backing this up on a regular basis and worry about security settings blah blah, i found the courage to publish a bunch of old entries that were in draft mode for a long time. it’s funny how time make so much of our present concerns so rather non consequential. so for my few ardent readers, they may find some old gems in there. i am even thinking about publishing some of my writings from india, otherwise i will surely forget them.
i’ve avoided writing and thinking in picture for the most of this past year. even though there some awesome insights from india that had major shift in my life in 2014, i spend very little time thinking beyond 2014 this year. i always tell people that my favorite aspect about being in india was all the reading and deep thinking/writing that i got to do. and with all the physical changes i’ve implemented this year through regular meditation and even yoga, the missing part of the equation for more serious personal development was a regular REFLECTION practice. my business coach reminded that even though a daily/weekly reflection practice was good, the end goal as the real time calibration of my behavior, ie being aware in the moment/reflecting within the instance to make better choices. for now, even writing more will be a good enough start for this habit that i want to develop. so much to write down in the next month really. unfortunately, my mind is mostly useless tonight after having woken up at 4am this morning and got shifted to work thoughts way too early.