it’s been a year since i took broke away from the corporate system completely and life has come full circle. i find myself in a state of intimate turmoil, fiscal weakness and mental overload. the repetitive days seem deceptively simple enough. wake up. focus for 10 hours. loss focus for 3 hours. wash. document. sleep. it’s in a nutshell kinda of living. some days i rejoice in the simplicity of it all and other days, i wonder how long i can put up with this passive agressive intensity.<\/p>\n
funny enough, what i wrote down a year ago came true recently. it was a simple enough adjective but it was enough to put something of that calibur. interestly enough. i rarely accept anything as just good enough but amazingly i still find the ablility to let that go. acceptng the imperfection of acceptance.
\nsilly awards constructed for silly persues of so call excellence.<\/p>\n
\ni had a nice dream a couple of nights ago. in the dream i meet the living manifestation of compassion. he gave me something that made me very happy and excitable. i felt the excitement the in the same way one can have wet dreams. nothing so over the top as so much but it feel an experience in my body. i woke up knew that the time had come again to reconnect with my past and future.<\/p>\n
father calls and tells me to stay away from crowded places because he’s been reading in the ny times about the successful terrorist hits. he has called a number of times over the ears telling me to make nice friends and get marry to a vietnamese or a chinese girl. he thinks i’ve just graduate 5th grade and i haven’t probably figure these things out yet. it’s like when i talk to my grandma twice a year and she tells me to eat good food and make a lot of money. the advise just get simple as the equations get more complex.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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