in the course of a day at work, there are probably hundreds of things i don’t like doing and maybe 5 or 10 that i actually enjoy that particularly day. interesting enough, the 5 things that i may enjoy one day can be on the list of dislikes the other. yes, sometimes i dislike photography and tonight would be a fine example of that case. more often than not, the kind of the photography i do the majority of the time is genearlly not much more than fodder for a photo blog. and then there are times […]

it’s been a while but it’s not for lack of trying. a couple of deleted entries didn’t make the light of day because being medicated means everything becomes more amplified. and so what brings me to this magic hour when 5 or more free mix drinks barely gets me going enough to force me out of the office by 10pm. the gig tonight reminded me of the time when i when to the party in the guieghiem which typical in NY fashion about 10x more interesting. i can imagine why it would be hard to leave NY […]

i was observing my behavior the other day after yoga class and i was trying to understand the nature of my subtle wryness towards group bondage. i as i watch my friend connect with other yogis after class, i observe my own lack of interest in reaching out into the community. it’s nothing entirely new to me because as far back as i can trace to my childhood days, i don’t think i ever felt comfortable being identified with any group. i was never smart enough to be on the hi q team nor was i ever […]

minor progress was made over this week in the realms of the pratice but it is not worthly of noting unless it further advances the practice and not the ego. even in it’s limited practice, the subtley of the material benefit is not unnoticed. and so, after reading a bit of the blur’s notes on the gita, i found an approraite quote from one of the priceless texts that i still have left in my possesion, the words of my perfect teacher by patrul rinpoche. “You may guide others once you have realized emptiness and developed clairvoyance. […]

i saw a double header last night, broken flowers and mysterious skin, both dealing with the past and the importance of “completing” or in layman’s term’s, coming to terms with it. it wasn’t as much as good entertainment per say but then again, i have ultra motives these days when i watch movies by directors that i respect. while one part of me is trying to enjoy the movie from a entertainment (break from work point of view), the always working part of me is analyzing the scenes in terms of composition, lighting and mood. it’s not […]