there’s no rational explantion for me to justify a trip to europe at the height of my material poverty in the past 5 years, but the decision was nonetheless important in my belief of the future. i remember the days of college when i paid rent with my credit card and carried a 5 digital debt most of my twenty something. but having achive the debt free status sometime ago, i find myself in a fimilar situation. and today, i made that commitment to the future again. no matter how deep i dig that hole, i believe enough in the present to bet on the future. it’s a liberating feeling of sorts.