i had two wonderful conversations today with two very different women of tender age of 35. the scope with one was more along the lines of a pond while the other covered areas closer to a great lake. it’s been a long time since i sat around in a cafe and had long conversations of the second degree. it reminded me the days of college when it was so exciting to meet new people and you can spend a lot of time just meeting new people all the time. these days, i am lucky if i meet one cool person a year but the last couple of months have been graceful to me. certainly, me alllowing the possibly of a social life has help along those lines.
i hadn’t really intended to write about the day until i came home to find my roommates watching waking life. the dialogue in that movie is simply delicious. it reminded me of my conversations today and i felt the need to express the graditute for it. to be honest, i have been having a lot more conversations in general with numerous different people since landmark. sometimes the conversations tend to be a little confrontation due to the nature of being more honest but i fear i may have gone too honest. it all comes down to a balance of approriate expression, neither too ying or too yang.
there is currently a great sychnoizicity of epic portions in my life. most of it fairly subtle but taken all in concert, it’s readily apparent that it is not something that i should ignore. it feels awkward to embrace it but the more i do, the less fear has a hold on me. the fear that something great can happen. the fear of the ego becoming ever more so subtle. but that is the risk i must take. it is too late to ever think small again. and so i formally began the next level of my education in the fine art of intentional creation.